I've been reading the devotional, My Utmost For His Highest for a couple of months now, and I came across something in it that really hit me a couple of weeks ago (the entry for March 17th, if you'd like to look it up).
The one sentence from it that has been ringing in my head is this:
"Paul was like a musician who gives no thought to audience approval, if he can only catch a look of approval from his Conductor."
Having been in a couple of different concert bands in my life (yes - nerd alert!), this was a very relatable image for me. Your eyes should always be on the conductor...if you get too caught up in looking to the audience and their reaction, you could lose your place in the music or miss a cue. An approving glance from the conductor was the best thing I could ask for while playing.
Often in my life, I get caught up in what others think of me, and I base many of my decisions on those thoughts (don't we all?). My motives become clouded, and I find myself doing things that I think will win the approval of the people around me, or make myself look like "a good person". I easily forget that my primary goal should be to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord from the inside. Even if I do look "good" to others, that doesn't matter if my private life is not in line with the heart of God.
Since reading this simple, but powerful sentence, I've been more conscious about checking my motives about who I am trying to please, and why I am doing the things that I do. I remind myself that all I really want is a glance of approval from my "conductor".
I hope this speaks to you in some way, just like it did to me. Thanks for listening to my ramble, as imperfect as it is.
And because I'd hate to leave you without a picture:
Hope you're having a great week!